The written Chronicles

Shimy: btw right.. just so u know, i voted u to become the student conductor. i know u are able to do a good job.

This particular sentence left me perplexed. I don’t even want that post in the first place and my heart for music making…lies somewhere else.

Why?

1) For the fact and circumstance that I thought the post.s are already announced and why would they freaking have another round of nomination. And for the fact I hate the concept of nomination because it reflex sheer incompetency of the conductor/teachers-in-charge to choose. These are my personal thoughts on any band practicing this because I know that every band has their own wants but sometimes when they materialize their wants so much they do not know what is better for them.

Just relating the story to CSSband for the past years. I felt the most musically-competent and tenacious should get the position as a student conductor, too bad the bad knows nuts about music but more on superficial “who can lead” or “who wants to get wins or not”. I just really failed on bringing out the importance of a good sense of music intonation, balance, dynamics, n-harmonics in the band. Too bad that the band would only pursue a military style which go around doing formations that ought to look like shapes with bad blasting music out of their instruments. Now i don’t see much value out of it. Sad to say the passion to learn music is not intrinsic like other bands Ive seen firsthand. Really hoped i don’t get into these kind of situations like MISB.

I personally think that light travels faster than sound in this band. Thats why some people appear to be competent until they open theirs mouths – they sound superficial, and worse – incompetent in their lieu of music yet boast of it inaccurately. Not trying to condescend to them that I am better but at least I would really love to improve on my concept of the sound i want to produce. Argh, if only the band knows a variety of genres like fugues, impressionist, overtures, chorales, and even the modern ones.

Now, back to the reason why I am perplexed is because maybe I can deal with the band with better improvement to the music with more form and construct. But maybe I do not.

2) For the second reason why I don’t even think I want to be in the position because of a very obvious reason. Some people are already hostile to me (i think hostile at a superficial basis already) with others following their actions mindlessly. Again i still wonder if we are old and mature enough for such things to happen. I mean obviously I have done not much to the band because I have been keeping a lower profile these days but some children just love to be immature and play a game of “you are weird”. Takes one to know one…

Actually I really love to drift from my own superficial sickenning rambling.

Because for the fact i had fun with reliving childhood memories playing frozen man and alipom (right?) with the SSW members, or more with yck members… They can really be so full of pure fun.

Went to SSW yesterday with me and Jonas going out of the cc to Sun Plaza collecting the stuff i send for binding. Really rejuvenating to get to walk there in the wet afternoon. After band we went to “fishball” and chatted and went to Elaine’s place. Went home and the granite floors were FREEZING……. I was practically shivering without the fan turned on.

Im bored and so are you

because you are reading this entry.

yes?

don’t lie

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go away