and others who had gave their listening ears when times are so screwed up.

Actually I was quite happy that I’m happy during the weekends so far. I mean if it wasn’t for Fiona for showing up one day though she’s sick, I think that Joy Tan going to just slaughter behead me alive like the person in Virginia Tech. I hope you cheer up, haha,I know this is not easy since your grandpa passed away. It was almost the same thing for me in 2007.

Thank you Joyce for the listening ear.  I mean my nights would have been sleepless if you weren’t online heh. I didn’t realise I am actually in your shoes like Project Director for T.D. and some other crappy stuff gone through with somebody. I didn’t think I would have a good sleep on the Friday if I wasn’t let a chance to unleash all my inner thoughts and worries. Trust me, a good sleep really do miracles in the next 2 or 3 days. A bad sleep will make me go cranky for the next 2 or 3 days, just that it is internalised and hidden.

Haha, again thank you people. but after reading something it leaves me with some regret.

I mean I wish I had rectified something or something like a huge pang engulfing me in realisation that I made a mistake. And all the could haves and have nots, but its too late. I want to see him again but its not possible.  But given one chance, I really want to see him and give him another hug before he is nothing but a piece of memory. I realised the past CNY reunion dinners were kinda bittersweet and lonely without his presence.  It seems that the family is growing smaller. Uncle Jimmy is perpetually at Hong Kong. And I don’t know nuts about the other uncles and aunties who faded into oblivion since childhood..?  I mean my grandma’s house used to be quite noisy with all the mahjongs and the TV blasting away.., now its just a scene out from the acting studio, monotonous without a player on the stage. When my father brought home those Badminton rackets  (my grandfathers one), it taught me a new value – cherish. Maybe my yehyeh (yeah thats what i call him) have physically gone to a better place, but I guess his traces still lingers.

Friends, when I send you those chamber or any other classical music, it was from his collections. When I use the Wilson bag to school,  these are signs of my yehyeh still lingering.  And maybe when I take up the racket in future,  his legacy will still prevail. My yehyeh did more than just reconciling a broken family. My grandmother was divorced because my biological grandfather didn’t work and gamble. The two sisters ran away after marriage and I guess its my Yehyeh who is so kind enough to marry my grandmother without any strings attached. Without having to bear any children for him. How nice, really. I guess I should have worked harding in following his footsteps in going to Saint Andrews. But yeah nevermind though.

I guess thats the reality of growing up, you lose more than what you can gain (and most of what you can gain may just be quite materialistic). In order to escape this fate is to learn to cherish or else, it just leaves you in regret.

Happy Chinese New Year!

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Today was way better than yesterday.

Talked to some teacher about it.

Worry-free.  She will work  something out on that idiot.

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Seriously, I cannot be bothered now.

I’m beyond words and expression.

To the extent I cannot even think properly right now,

Shows how much I just need to be alone, I should go and sleep.

To you: really, don’t try to convince me, I’m also naturally stubborn.

1st week of school is fine, although I get mentally lethargic of going home abit late and if I’m not wrong I went to ACJC for some workshop for Debates and it was cool. Went home around 9-ish.

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* Transfer of “Rebroll.mp3″ is complete. *
Fikri Iskandar         says: oh yeah
Fikri Iskandar         says: that one
Fikri Iskandar         says: turn full volume
Fikri Iskandar         says:
Fikri Iskandar         says: its very soft
Isal || Shadow Ridge Volleyball #3       says: YA RIGHT
Isal || Shadow Ridge Volleyball #3       says: first note almost killed me!
Fikri Iskandar         says: HAHAHHAHAHAHA

Finished our proposal, 15 full pages of it!

NEED to FINISH MY MATH AND DO SOME READINGS FROM ISEAS AND some ECONOMICS JOURNAL for personal gains.

AND IM OFF!

thankyouthankyouthankyou.

OMGSALMAHISGOINGTOKILLMEBECAUSEIDIDN’TRETURNHERFILESSINCETHEITALIANEXCHANGE *foams*

Haha.

Suddenly I miss my OG S4, and adrian, janice, limei and gang.

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Was reviewing my year planner for 09      … ..and council work is harsh. (more…)

Can’t think of anymore idiotic ideas. Guess have to tone down my ambition.
BPDC works out fine if everyone cooperates but WSDC is very crappy.
Even she said AJC’s one was super messy for the most stupidest reasons.

Haiya, damn scared about it. Hope we have more time for meet up but just ARGH.

12 pages of maths homework undone.  GJ GJ.

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Resolution for 2008:  Be a happier guy.

Results:……………………….Overall Pass. (more…)