The written Chronicles

Its not easy to give your best all the time. Neither is it any easier to entertain my complacency nor procrastination at times. But this time, its mroe than just that, its fatigue. I need to keep the flame alive but the doubts seems to set it flicker. My friends are coping well and myself? Swerving to the edges.

Don't pull, push

Perhaps thats what teachers are trying to make us do. No more mediocre steps, time to make giant leaps. The fall may be painful but its worth the cause.

Find it.

The breath is just temporarily dissipating, but in the forthcoming the breath’s a huff. I need to keep my motivation level – of which I lack. Teachers too, root for us, but my future is only in my hands.

Endure.

But,I believe I kinda screwed up to that undesired extent -not only disappointing Rebecca’s but the team and myself (Why did I not manage my time properly). I shouldn’t have been so last minute but whats said is said. If only I had abit more structure and a tagline, perhaps the adj could follow me better. But I could have hammer on their lack of determinate policy and its just principle. Principle.  And also about lack of clash. Anthony did well in his ways. Congrats for being best speaker! and I feel team spirit coming in, though I can’t join for supper. Sae,  though you almost freaked, it worked well in your favour, don’t stop there. Fathin, REMEMBER TO BREATHE!! I’m at least happy im clearing up some commitments, some well and some not well enough. The two rounds next Saturday should end on a basis we tried our best (be it winning or losing at a close margin).  AEC project filming and analysis will be done up soon. And Pre-U Sem ( although I am non-existent in meetings :/ well I hope the idea generation is there in the proposed) AND PW is scaring me. and H1 mt, and MATHS .

Ms Quek said last week’s monday I’m going through a crisis. I’m glad I’m better. Champa and Melvin is not going to meet me tomorrow cause I have Davide but at least its one breakfast! I know Kar Yee will find ways to torment me like my oratorical stuff and perhaps the stupid things I do….for the past year and a quarter. Joyce is keeping me company by my side, and stop calling me pimple! I have a name.

As soon as I’m cleared of  certain commitments (paranoaic  eyes darting randomly checking if teachers are spying on me) I will continue on my PW and Studies.  And then after catch up with friends and everything I’ve missed. As if I can actually know whats going on in everything?

Italians loved Sentosa like alot! And about time for me too. The last time I went there was in sec 2/3? It certainly cleared my mind keeping them in company. I hope I have enough cash to claim though. I heard Dinesh is maxed out and same goes for Joyce and Hemani. And the many many many essays by tomorrow.

Buona Notte!

ITS THE FOURTH MONTH AND I CANNOT fcking forget about YOU. Fikri something is wrong

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