List of nicknames

Fatkri (“Fatkri at KFC today!”,”FATKRI faster =(..”)
Fitkri
Fikwi
Fi Hikiwi!
fikiwi-mon!
fikwee..
fickyfack.
Annoying Fikiwi. (you should start a show, put your face on a kiwi!)

fikiwi-mon! (srsly?)
my nicknames get weirder and longer by every day
because of Tan FAT Zhi

Told you he’s fatter than me
OK FINE I’M SKINNY
okthxbye..

Happy time!

:D

So we finally had our own post-prelim picnic.
Had Kebabs, Mac-and-Cheese, Flew Kites, Dragged Kites,
sang to Fan Zhi’s Strumming, played (and learned new) card games
Perhaps, I could compress the whole of this day into one word:
Awesome!

It came, It happened, It left..

I do admit I have a language problem, and its glaringly obvious from the manner I speak. Grammar problems and awkward expressions. And I could not express myself in a way that I would enable others to understand what I’m going through or how I feel. Thats what happens when you bottled up.

I also admit that I’ve not been very consistent towards my studies apparently. I’ve been giving myself too many breaks and leeways. Too much enjoyment time and too little time to ponder upon my studies. I’ve been procrastinating on the testimonial, I’ve been procrastinating on my SGC and the SSW/SWO cip eventlist. Basically, I seem to shelve all important responsibilities and rush it before its due. I need to stop doing this. And I know I hate to preach what I don’t practice. I know having Joyce as my closest friend in school means having to nudge her when she’s been off-track. But I can’t do so if I’m like that myself. And teachers, they seem to not have any slightest idea that we are shirking from our schoolwork…in fact they think that I’m overly stressed. I know, right?

I think this is probably one of the rarest time I’m going to say this: I’m not looking forward to school tomorrow. Not because my father’s coming to school, not because that there is history for….6 periods but the fact that I’m deplorably unprepared. I’ve not done my tutorials and assignments. I know my mind is on the goal of scoring triple As for H2 and A for GP. That will never materialize if i don’t sacrifice more than what I enjoy.

But that aside, I had a great Weekend I guess…Also because it was Fikriday last friday! (I know I’ve regressed in my narcissistic self again)

T'was came 30th July 2010

A gift of hope for the Hopeless

I kinda needed to make this not just an annual affair since this is one of the last few birthdays I would be able to spend before all my good friends disperse, right? Imminently, NS is my life next year,  so of course why not enjoy right?

FAIL

Fiona and the star

And Isaac too..

and CHAMPA!

1st Shot

2nd Shot and my epic face

Ok just what the hell..

and Joyce happened to see Ceiling Cat. meow.

And that was the day I get to go to Marina Bay Sands and we had some funny and awkward incidences there with J and F.

Walking pass a guy exclaiming to his friends, “Wow, its been a long time since I’ve seen civilization”
And all of us walking pass him and felt utterly amused and simply..lol?
Oh another one, we walked past some dunman high kids in some collegiate fonts “I AM A STUDENT”, and I was about to say DUH for real..

to be continued

Happy 2010!

Happy New Year…

It has been a memorably beautiful and dramatic journey for 2009.

Hello 2010

A comeback

Yes I know, it has been a long time since I blogged. Especially in a narrative structure. And even if I had to pen down any of my pensive and contemplative thoughts all the time, I would already have it published best-seller in Singapore

2009

A year has passed. Contrary to what many have claimed that this was a fast year, for me it is the otherwise – it was one of the most colourful one coupled with a lot of drastic changes,dramatic roller-coaster rides, year I’ve ever had in my life. I delved into alot of new experiences and issues this year, made new friends, rebonded back with the ones from my past. So much so that this can be composed into a symphony/epic novel *tears* – and not something of ephemeral value and stowed away into the back recesses of my mind . Haha, I’m not really that full of myself.

School Life
Someone has to kid me if they are not saying school life didn’t shape their lives at all

As such a student like myself, we were used to the normal routine in life. We go to school, wait for the assembly to start, go for lessons, look forward to breaks, panic during tests or upcoming ones. More panic when the promos are coming. Cringe at the sight of pull up bars, shower after PE, have dinner together, go home. Pretty much routine, but routine isn’t exactly normal for me this year. Every morning when I wake up and don in my smurfy blue uniform, I have to sometimes prick my bloody finger on a stupid dangerous pin-needle of a badge. No, its not the badge you have to put on the left collar on your uniform, its a supposedly gold bar that you put above your left pocket (if you are lucky enough not to prick your nips). Yeah routine taken on another level and I’m not talking about just putting on a council badge. Its going to school or rush to be in school to do your duties….BUT lets not go there now..
08A1 – Yes same class, new people.

To be openly frank, I wasn’t very optimistic of this new class, even so I had differences with some of the orignal A1s that were in our class. But with the new people in and after the eliminatory stages of common test it was a heck of a fun bunch of 15. It was a far better class than what I’ve seen in 08. How can I not be proud to say that we are the best performing class for the arts? It wasn’t an easy ride though, endurance is key (especially you have to go through this graded curriculum under the a levels -PW). Working with Nisha Salmah and Derek was fun but drains alot of energy and mental will. I mean life has really taken on a new different perspective on things with projects, pilot studies, reports. And shed a new light on another character as well. I still can remember having lunch breaks at the cafeteria with hearing Nisha bitch upon a common group member – who does little or no work at all.  Patience is indeed a test of time spent with an awful character as well. But upon introspection,  we were surprised that there were truckloads that we hear whom are very displeased with that member.  Haha yeap. Other than that, Ms Zaibah was a really cool home tutor (although I silently and rampantly disagree with her dispostion and outlook of others but..) really helps us alot in our work. How can I forget the tormenting pains just being beside this stupid Nisha. Heh But i have my fun times…

Me: Eh, come *beckons*
Nisha:  What? *comes closer*
Me: Breathe in! Breathe in deeply….
Nisha: *Sniifffff*
Me: I just farted….

How can I forget? Waiting after PE lessons after tuesdays to hang out with Champa, Laurent, Melvin, Kar Yee, Joyce Fiona, to have dinner during the 1st semester (before the dispersal for the A level race). We would talk just about anything. Joyce would disturb me and I gave her the silent stare…her never-ending mockery of “PIMPLE” every morning.. Talking about anything related to school, the group laughing at melvin (Especially the way KY insulted him)…Yeah, good times.

I would wait for Champa on Sembawang Station and contact Melvin when we are reaching admiralty, Champa racing her history/lit essays…studying with them for common tests, staying overnight at Melvin’s place to consult him for PW…Having a Champa’s birthday party at Laurents house, my failure at Karaokes. And not to forget Joyce, haha though we had out conflicts in the past, we shared our life’s regrets, life stories and opinons…a very comforting soul who gladly sat there silently beside me while I watched the whole world crumbling upon my hands and I broke down in class (upon hindsight it was a year crush), oblivious and not in the frame of mind to think what others might think about me. Thanks for being there!

It always seems like scoring good grades for econs, being top 2 in cohort for literature/history and top 10% of the cohort remain a remnant of 2009 glory. Yet I ponder why was it very effortless given that I didn’t need to study very vigourously. Perhaps it was really a year of epiphanies?

And of course it wasn’t all easy though. Commitment seem to be a test of my endurance. Like a manifestation of a dracula sucking every pint of blood from my soul. Council, Debates, and the Italian exchange (albeit fun) really taken a toll on my energy/time…. Hosting is not an ordinary feat (considering MIDCs and intensive debate training was on that day)

Japan Trip

Who can forget the fun gang on the trip? It was the best 5 days I had in November. I always love indulging in a foreign culture. Although I need to regain my honour though. Can you beleive my luck on the last night being called ultimate babi TWICE – having to wear Nisha’s pyjamas as a forfeit and going down to the lobby and asking the counter for water. I’ll just let the pictures do the talking. Who won’t forget the post-japan trip outing.. Dinner at 18chefs and party at supperclub!

SMUN 09 Clique

Usually at academic events, I would just go back and relish at the thought that I gained something from this. I was very wrong.  It seems that the friends I made from this,  we are closely keeping in contact.  Jian Wei ( HCI-USA), Nelson(ACJC-Indonesia), Claudia (NJC-Mexico), Doralyn (NJC-Somalia), Pei Yi (ACSI-Japan),  Andrew(NJC-forgot what contry). Perhaps it was upon my luck that I got invited to go on a post-SMUN outing at the end of day 3? Haha and Jian Wei had to sneak out for MUNs! I guess we will never forget cycling at ECP, playing Shoot Shag Marry, Truth/truth, Never Had I ever. Also for attending our concert, Jian Wei’s birthday surprise, Peiyi’s Guitar Orchestra concert, studying econs with claudia haha. And of course, the liberty frolicking around J8 in the holidays with Jian wei and hanging out at his pool and talking about every thing under the sun!.. Of course  there was Yee Shuang whom I spent alot of late night chats and Elin Wong at times (when is not very sarcastic and abrasive in her words :[ )

SSW/SWO

SSW turns 4! and in about months, it would be 5...

Queen Symphony

Who wants to live forever? I still can remember playing the symphony on stage, focusing on the music-making that speaks so much yet suppressing all the tormenting emotions i have to handle in that period of time. It embodies so much I wanted to express. My first kiss. My rediscovery of myself. The period of torpor and the period of moving on where it remains as mere memories locked up at the back recesses of my mind. It was an awesome concert really.

And yes I’ve made new friends (despite my introvertedness). If I were to think about it, it has been a year since I met Terence and he helped me alot in my clarinet playing. Especially this november-december period, where the three of us (Jeff, Him and myself) would go to fishball for dinner and Macs for Ice-cream. We would talk about anything, how I really didn’t have it easy back in my days of CSS band (which inadvertantly made him appreciate DHSSB and Mr Ng more haha). And the 3 of us would talk about the nice pieces, symphonies, SYF pieces etc.

And of course Jeff.Evil.Kwan….

Though I know him since..(er can’t remember actually) we’ve really taken the time and effort to hang out more often this holidays. Its really a healthy way to release all my pensive thoughts (though I’m running low on them sometimes) and we have alot of fun pensive thoughts and we just happen to share the same interest! And talk alot of nonsense no matter where we are, Northpoint’s Starbucks (given we live quite near), the swimming pool, Christmas Eve Party, and also at his place! I didn’t really thought I would hang out with someone (erhem..looks younger than his age) and we can talk about anything, and actually make time to hang out. Not like my friends who are relatively my age,  more free but couldn’t make the time to hang out. It was only this morning we were having lunch at a kopitiam in Yishun…

More to come..

Essentially dreams materialise when someone wants it.

And because I want I gain it, or will have it.

“I do not think there is any other quality so essential to success of any kind as the quality of perseverance. It overcomes almost everything, even nature.” John D. Rockefeller

The blissful

The happiness of life is made up of minute fractions—the little soon-forgotten charities of a kiss, a smile, a kind look, a heartfelt compliment in the disguise of a playful raillery, and the countless other infinitessimals of pleasurable thought and genial feeling.
Samuel Taylor Coleridge

SLE and OBS.

So I finally settled down from all those procrastinations to blog my tots.

Its abit hard you know, I have to drink brand’s chicken of essence plus all the brain food i can to remember what I have gone through. Its all stored in, and now you all folks, you get it inside out!

Update pictures more on a later date.

~~~SLE~~~

Heck I don’t know what am I missing if i forgo this. Had thought of forgoing this due to my sheer laziness and glad I didn’t. I shudder to think how I wouldn’t have changed because of this. As the name suggest, it is the “Student Leadership Experience”, and again it gave me new lenses to the word leadership. Yes we have seen good leaders ourselves but how potential has it in us that’s not unleashed (for my case, unleashed during the OBS) heh. Heh, I will remember to sustain the values that were imbued in me….unprecedentedly. It thought me not just to lead the way but also take a pause in my life, review, then take a step forward, lead my life — instead of following it — something humans are very good at doing unknowingly.

On the 5 November, we went to the Changi Coastal Resort camp.

I mean it wasn’t a very nicely planned out camp since we didn’t have any ice-breaker. But hey, whats life without a peek of reality. Its inevitable in life we must survive without all this buzzy “orientations” or “ice breakers”. Now thats life, something that dawned upon us when we left the camp – we have to work with one another regardless of the differences and perceptions. I guess everyone can be a leader but not all at the same time. All of us are leaders and all of us are followers in some sense. I have to be very honest, I’ve been nothing but a judgmental and a critical life-form when I was there (Which reminds me, I should tone down my “insisting my idea is better than yours” ego) Amongst the faces of people, I was skeptical some are even of leadership material, by the way they speak, listen and do stuff, until it unfolds in day 2 which is kind of changing our mindset in a way. We had rope-climbing and high rope elements – something to me which is very exhausting waiting for others to climb and fidget and struggle and cringe and go back down. But it also serves another meal of revelation to me again. Retrospectively, I wasn’t tolerant of their weaknesses. I know their fear and advice them, yeah sure i did , but i didn’t take the time to encourage them or understand their fear (instead of knowing). It really boils down to my ego, ego ego. Yes, beneath all these facade, I’m nothing but fueled with ego.

Afterwards, we had water-rafting, something I hate to do (even during obs). It reminds me how much i hate to do rope activity since im not good with my hands but sometimes you have to try anyway. Ours capsized and/or float another way round -.-

The next day was ubin, had to literally wake up at 4am and went to Ubin at 6am to start our amazing race. Yes. The teachers scheduled it in such a manner. Purposely. Lol Everyone was lethargic and oh yeah remind me to discriminate some of the people who didn’t clean themselves when they emerge from sleep. I told to some of my groupmates “You know I cannot stand some people, they already have a fucktard face and they can’t even bother to wash it when they already wake up. I mean if you don’t bathe never mind, i feel like telling them ” You know you are already ugly, can you at least…wash your face? ” ” LOL. Heh some of them don’t even bathe for 1 whole day, even if they are given the luxury too.

Oh yeah, during the painstaking amazing race around Ubin, i realised how diligent, tenacious and the perseverance to help the group mates who were having difficulties along the way and its a 4km minimum per checkpoint, means we walked more than 20 clicks around ubin, with one of the checkpoints from one end to another. Good news is that we have to return to another end of ubin to collect another clue and go back to the other checkpoint. How tiring to start our day with this kind of activity. I felt the PE teachers who organised this just simply want us to walk. hahahahah. Ok, I realised not all of them are just pretty faces, underneath lies their strong core of potential leadership material. Already one of our members had blister, fell down or had stomach ache. I didn’t realise how tactless I was asking them to pace up or just there in front. I didn’t realise I was subtly impatient, and heartless(in some sense). Have to applaud Nay for her will to persevere for another stranger. How much in your lifetime do you help so much for another stranger in a desperate need for help. Not often really. If anyone’s leadership is proven, it got to be Nay’s and not mine.

Lol and when our group return to the canteen tables, we slept there as a group. Knock out and in deep sleep. I drooled shhh.

Campfire was fun. *Airplane lands* RETRIBUTION! (Inside Joke)

So on our last day, all these values were still kept in us because all of us had to lead the juniors and other Millennians as well. Oh yeah Nay and Shafina got best camper. *Cheers*

OBS post….erm sometime tonight? No promises = D = D OBS Peeps post me PICTURES